Songs For Sunday

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Written in April 2023, this song is about a specific memory I had with my ex-fiancé. We went to the beach on a date once and it was one of my favourite days in my entire life, I had proposed to her the day before. When I wrote the song, I just wanted to express how completely happy I was, for the first time in my life, being there with her. The line "red shine all for me" is my favourite line from the song, you'll have to guess what it means

I wrote this song in May 2023. The song is about the dissonance between how I perceived myself  and how my ex-fiancé felt about me. I realise in the song that I am actually a good person, because she wouldn't have been with me if I wasn't. It contains the first guitar solo I have released, I originally wanted my friend to play the solo, but he got scared. This is my favourite song on the album.

Written in March 2023, the lyrics are about how much I loved any sound that my ex-fiancé would make, I couldn't comprehend how she sounded that lovely when she spoke. The chorus puzzles me, I'm not fully sure what it means, I even say in the first demo I made for the song that I didn't know why I was singing the words Borderline. It was either a reference to the physical distance which was between us, as it was a long distance relationship, or it's a reference to the mental health issues that were in our relationship. I view it as the second. I wrote the instrumental for the song while noodling with my guitar, while watching TV in bed next to my mum. I realised when we finished watching what was on TV that I had written a good song.

Written in Jun 2023. The song is about how I would literally fly on a long plane ride to be with my ex. I wanted to use some more complex chords in this song, so I just put my hand in random positions and moved shapes I come up with around. I also wanted the chords in the first part of the verse and the second part to be different, as my previous songs had been very simple. On the recording on the album there are two recordings of my voice, the voice on the left was recorded before my ex broke up with me and the one on the left was recorded after, I thought that was quite poetic. 

This song was written some time before December 2023. Its about child abuse, specifically how I was treat. When I was writing the song, I didn't write a verse for a long time, so the chorus was written about how I wanted to please my ex and be a good partner to her. Later when I wrote the howl away line and the chorus, it turned into me talking about trying to change my behaviour to not annoy my parents.

Written some time before December 2023. The song was originally written to express my regret for doing things that hurt my ex, especially anything that I did that she didn't know about and I felt guilty for doing. After our breakup, I realised that most of the things I felt guilty for, weren't things I should have felt guilty about, but instead were a reflection of the mental health issues in the relationship. So I changed the song to be about how terrible my mental health was, as a result of the relationship.

Written from late March to April of 2023. The song is about how I wanted to do anything I could to make my ex's life better. The chorus was inspired by the show Heroes "save the cheerleader, save the world", I think I saw my ex as my cheerleader at the time. The guitar in the song is extremely painful for me to play, I will never play it live, unless someone else  plays the guitar. 

This song was written in June 2023. The song is about how I was so depressed any time I wasn't talking to my ex that I didn't want to be alive, the only thing that made me feel happy was her. I later realised that the relationship was quite mentally abusive, which is why I felt the way I did when I wasn't with her. It also explores that I didn't feel like I could tell my ex how depressed I was, because whenever I mentioned it, she would breakdown and didn't know what to do, so I would end up comforting her. I knew at the time that this wasn't healthy, but I didn't feel like I could do anything about it without hurting her, so I set my feelings aside, I think the song expresses this quite well.

The song was written not too long after my first album was recorded. Its a simple song about how I felt like I was emotionally alone, I didn't feel like anyone else cared how I felt. A lot of my life I have had to suppress the way I feel to please other people, this song was the first time I started to process that.

This song was improvised in July of 2023. On the original album I made for my ex as a present, I only had a few songs, so I needed to fill out the track list. I improvised the song on the spot after choosing two chords for the verse, the chorus was done on the fly. I wasn't going to include it on the album when I uploaded it to streaming, but when I listened to it back, I realised how in love I was and wanted to preserve the good parts of my previous relationship.

Written in January 2023. This song was the first I wrote after a trip I took to visit my ex in person for the first time. I was hit with euphoria after the trip, and the song is about how I felt that all the pain and suffering in my life was over, because I was in love with such a wonderful person. This euphoria later turned into complete depression. This was the last song I recorded for the album, which is why I sound so happy at the end and a little crazy at the beginning. 

This song was written at some time before December 2023. The song was inspired by my ex's love of Mac DiMarco, so I wanted a silly song about food. The song was written to fill out the track list of the original version of the album. I also wasn't going to include this song on the streaming version of the album, but when I listened back to it, I wanted to show how happy we were at the time.

Written before December 2023. The song is about how at the time, I wanted to stay with my ex forever. I also couldn't rap my head around how much I loved this person, I felt like I could never express in words how in love I was, this song tried to rectify that. 

Written late December 2023. This song was written after a plea I had to get back together with my ex, we had broken up about a week earlier. Once I realised it was over, I didn't want her to regret the relationship, I also wanted to show her how much the relationship meant to me. So I wrote a song about how important the relationship was to me and how I'll always cherish what we have. It's the only song on the album that was written post breakup. I really like the song, I don't think many people would be able to write something so positive when there entire world was collapsing around them. 

This song was written in July 2023. My mum had gotten me a Kalimba, so I wanted to write a song with it. I improvised the lyrics, they are just about the love I felt at the time. This is supposed to be the bonus track for this album.